And so it begins....

Baby Showers.

Baby showers - I don't even know where to begin on this subject. Normally, I am a HUGE fan of showering people with love and gifts and attention even if there isn't a reason for doing so. I love bridal showers and baby showers and random showers for whatever the situation calls for. All for it. I am that girl who squeals and gets all giddy at the mention of a baby or a wedding. I love planning and executing them. I love looking at photos of them online. Hearing about them makes my heart explode. I love everything about them.

So.........I am officially 30.5 weeks pregnant (and yes, I am adding the .5 because I have gotten to that point)! Now that typically means that people start doing the baby showering and giving of the gifts at random times, right? RIGHT.

To be absolutely clear: YES, I am having a baby shower. And yes, I am such a frickin' control freak that I have had my hands in all of the planning. It's not that I don't trust my friends, I swear, I do. It's because I love these things so damn much.

........so, then, why the blog then? We all know you do not blog on the regular, Moe, what's up?

I am totally dreading my baby shower.

And I can't quite place my finger on why....perhaps it's because:

1. That's a lot of attention on me and my belly.

2. I am not the kind of girl with a million friends - I work 50+ hours a week, there's no time for socializing. Plus, I'm a guys kind of gal anyway and all my dude friends think showers are 'gay.'

3. I am super stressed about how this whole thing turns out....from who shows up to the food and the decorations.....

4. I get weirded out when people buy me things. I know that everything is for Aubrey, which is super awesome but I'm weird. I have always been one to take care of myself.

*sigh*

So here I am, one week away from this shower and I am getting super anxious.

Am I the only freak out there?